Another bit of rambling before bed

I can't believe I have already had 30+ views of this blog. I really didn't know anybody would read it.
I was looking through some of my things and found my brother Steve's funeral program. I still recall giving the eulogy. I was so close to him that it tore me apart when my mom told me he had died. But the good things that I remember about him still make me smile. Now the weird part...I was never a big Star Trek fan until he died, then suddenly I found myself to be a huge fan. I watched all the episodes of the old series and next generation. I started to collect Star Trek stuff and now I can hardly contain it all. And because he was the Star Trek fan of fans I supposed that he must've left that part of himself with me. I still have dreams about him, and although in the dreams I know he is gone I still talk to him as if he wasn't.
Now my brother James is a different story. I hardly really knew him and since he died on Friday I haven't had any dreams about him. One more oddity...I feel that Steve made it to Heaven and is thoroughly enjoying himself there, but James, well, because he was an Atheist I don't think he made it there at all. Maybe that's why he isn't in my dreams. He is just gone out of my life and out of this life. That part of it is very disheartening to me as I tried so hard to get him to come over to the Lord's side. I did the best I could to win him for Christ, but he would have none of it. I now face the daunting task of trying to win my one remaining brother, (also an Atheist) and I hope I can. I don't like losing my family to the Devil. My Mom already believes as does my sister and I thank God for that all the time. It isn't that it puts a "Feather" in my cap, but if I could just win Tim over to God's side then I could relax knowing that the rest of my family are prepared for the end as I am and that when I am called I would see them again. Does that make me selfish?
I really want to know. So please comment for me. Let me know what you think. Am I selfish for wanting my whole family in Heaven with me or what? And do you think I would be too pushy about it? I don't want to seem that way but I am desperate.